How my code threats me

My code was working, but my results were not accurate,
I was not satisfied. You would say I am a perfectionist
here I am...
A friend of mine made a suggestion. 
Yes, Li, that's it, I should go and try it out.
I knew exactly what I wanted to do,
but I had no clue how.
It took a day or two to figure out how to do it. 
Last night, I finished modifying the code and ran a case. 
I was happy indeed.
Today morning, I got up and checked the results.
It was worst than before. 
My results look pretty ugly. 
It should work
I did it write, and why it's not working???
Now, I have a perfectly working code, which doesn't work the way I want it to. 
Can you feel my stress?
I was not happy for sure...
I had to give some thought and check the code again.
First, I thought it might be due to reason 1.
I checked it, and that's not the real reason.
Next, I thought it might be reason 2, and 
no no no, I know it can't be it...
So, it might be due to some unknown reason, how the hell do I find it!!!
I couldn't find it, I double, double and double-checked the code,
and the code looks all perfect...
Now, my stress level goes up and up and up,,,,
It's almost the end of the day,
and I still don't know what's wrong...
Then, I thought I will just give it up, 
I will tackle a different problem.
You know that I am not that type. 
I basically can't give up, that's how I have been living till today.
This problem was still on my mind,
running in the background, though I am not thinking.
All of a sudden, I saw a little thing that I didn't do, which I should've done.
I just fixed it and run a test case.
Tomorrow morning, it will be either thrilling or frustrating...

Jun 13, 2022
Methma

A battle of Math 'n English ( I and She)

The final verison of the poem

I'm fond of math 

She had no bond with math
She sincerely loves English
I hardly touched English
I used to skip it 
She doesn't know it 
She really takes time learning it 
I am highly impressed with that
I barely studied English
She rarely skips studying English 
She has all sort of resources
I whereas had no such sources
I happily spent hours 'n hours on math 
She actually went away 'n away from math
She enjoys roaming around the garden
I joys even dreaming that garden 
I always ate naturally ripen garden-fresh fruits
She all days pleased to snack the same fruits
She has two sisters to hang around 
I was dreaming about a sister all year round 
I literally had just a cat for all 
She liberally plays with 'em and crawl
She got the power 
I was under the power 
I was noted as a bit lazy 
She is same-same isn't it crazy 
She has acquire a strong personality
I still have a dependent mentality
I peacefully relished the nature around
She is now delighted at the same ground 
She is my queen
I love her scene
I can only see her from far
She closely resembles me in fair
She is teen yet keen on learning
I see from screen 'n she's charming
I feed her with English sessions
She seems to enjoy my lessons
She is impressive, solves math problems 
I'll just explain the wrongly done problems
I let her learn math by herself
She is keen on math as well
She is charming-charming
I am sad on parting darling
I figure myself through her
She mirrors my past, no blur
She heals me 'n joy is a gain
I feel like I'm living it once again 
I use English as much as math 
She will like math as much as English?

Methma 
Oct 31, 2020

Following is the original version of the poem. I greatly appreciate your comments on your favourite version. 

Original version

I'm fond of math
She was not a fan of math
She loves English
I was not interested in English
I used to skip it
She doesn't know it
She takes time learning it
I'm impressed
I never study for English exams
She always does
She has all the resorces
I even didn't have a dictionary
I spent hours and hours on math
She tried to skip math
She loves loitering in the garden
I had good many circles at the same garden
I always ate fruits fresh form trees
she now enjoys those fruits
She has her sisters to hand around
I never had a one to talk with
I was the lazy type
She is my type in that sence
She has a good personality
I was dependent on others
I enjoyed the nature as much as I wanted
She is now enjoying it at the same ground
She always admires me 
I always think of her
I can only see her from far 
She now closely looks like me 
She is keen on studying 
I admire her attitude
I help her on English
She enjoys my lessons 
She also solves math problems 
I just correct her mistakes
I only teach her difficult math concepts 
She is now keen on math too 
She is adorable as always 
I see my past through herself 
I feel like I'm living it again 
She is just like me 
She will like both math 'n English? 
I need English as much as math 

April 2019 - 310 to 359

310 is a big number
It will ever remember
While they pray in the chamber
One enters &  cumbers them forever

No more 310, now it's 321
No idea how high it'll run
If one clue shine with the sun
No dought, they'll all shun

Although it's pre-detected
You were simply neglected
But didn't forget to protect
all of us, in case it's correct

Why you'll protest?
How many places to protect?
At this magnitude, we never expect
Don't object, hey kindly respect

Row in a row, white & bright
Box in a box, men & women
Head to toe, bold & cold
Eye in an eye, tear & fear

Christians, locals and foreigners
Dressed in white, as others
A line stretched to heaven
Ready to leave us in a second

Do you think, it's fine 
No, now it's 359
Do you know there were 9
Indeed, need people has a spine


With a deep pain
Methma Madushankani
April 24, 2019

Advice

Drama: Six flying dragons
Theme: If you are powerful, capable and brave enough, no one can stop you.
Lesson: One should not disregard the power of ones will.

Six flying dragons is a South Korean drama series which I loved from the beginning to the very end. Toward the end of the drama, I learned one important lesson about the world. That is, "The most suited person should be kept in position, otherwise he/she will take it anyhow". It was a shocking lesson I ever learned and will not forget. The story was well written and the drama was nicely executed, worth watching it. It's a long drama, yet I highly recommend watching it before reading the pome. 



A strategic plan for a better world
Epic odyssey for an unseen world
Abate evils in this strange world
Hoping a pure and sublime world

Everyone has their own role
Your choice, no one control
Work hard with a noble soul
They all share the same goal

Two scholars, they're brave
Two warriors, they're strong
Two leaders, people respect
Six together powerful dragons

Everything goes, as they chose
They are close, to make it close
Some facts froze, got disclose
The once respect, now suspect

One scholar praise powerless kings
The other wishes to expand his wings
With this collide, they got divided
Still in sync, got the power in a blink

One leader became the proclaimed king
As before, the other was people's king
Everyone was happy, except the one
Highly contributed, now regards none

He is brave and does not wave
The most suitable and irrefutable
Shamelessly they cast him away
From the entree of the power array

Never died his love of ruling
Concealing it, he was waiting
By putting his beloved teacher down
He could finally sit on the crown


Methma
Jan 1, 2019

A story without a name

I know who you are
You know who I am
You recognized that it's me
I did too
I smiled with you
You smiled with me
You left without a word
I was out of words
I stopped & looked back
You didn't look back
You disappeared to thin air
I failed to find you
I couldn't stop tears
You couldn't send a word
You didn't open your heart 
I didn't close my heart
I was very small
You were really big
You were closer 
I never expected that
I stopped to talk
You refused to talk
You were harsh
I was hurt
I let you go
You left with a smile
You misunderstood me
I too misunderstood 
I figured it out
You too figured it out?
You were in front of my eyes
I never expected that
I stopped to talk
You stopped to talk
Your smile healed all of my hurts
I am honoured you smile with me
I let you go
You left with a smile
You can't hurt me anymore
I can't close my heart anyway
I will go my way
You will go your way
You opened your heart a little
I am happy with that little

Methma
Sep 14, 2018

You didn't

The warmth of my long white dress
Blew to the blank sky with a tress
The flow of clouds as white as snow
Changed its form row in a row  

An empty can was rolling down 
On the icy road behind the lawn
The endless wind made me freeze 
You didn't feel the fresh cold breeze...

Live, dead and some half-dead
Greener veins and the rest was red
Yellow, orange, pink and purple
Yellow again and a tree of maple

Along the streets, throughout the hills
Fallen colors gave me thrills
It was a heaven over eaves
You didn't see the colors of leaves...

Securely concealed dormant buds
Swelled in warm as floral buds 
Leaves or flowers, first or next
Spread all over, in their best

Flowery fragrance mixed soft air
Brought a delicacy of good care 
It was elegant with nice posies
You didn't smell the scent of roses...

The water of tears in layers of blue 
From ocean green to Pacific blue
No single cloud, the sky was blue
A warm wind was blowing through

My plain gown was fluttering round
Two little terns were dancing around
It was full of the sound of raves
You did hear the singing of waves...

Methma 
July 1, 2018

I can enjoy this poem in six different ways. Can you enjoy it even more ways?

The little girl

Who thought a tiny little person
Can shake me, like this

I never knew
This little girl
That I have personally met only twice
In my whole life
Will be so close to me

I thought that only me
No, I was wrong
She was longing for me too
I never thought that's possible
But, at the end
She is filling in my heart
Like her big sisters

Her behavior is so much alike
To her first sis 
Whose
Only words 
From her tiny mouth
Were
"Come home"
"Come home"
Every time
When she was on phone.

She was my tail
When I was at home.

This girl is more social 
Coz, two sises 
She is keen, lively and soft
But, no difference  
I was waiting and waiting 
And waiting...
Finally
Her tiny mouth mimic smoothly
"Well, you better come our home"
It's a mixed feeling
I love it but pathetic
I am far away...

She is adorable 
That's why I call her
"Amanda"
hmmm
"Amandina"

You only three
Whose is the third girl
And, I am only your aunt
But, you are my own

Methma
April 15, 2018