A story without a name

I know who you are
You know who I am
You recognized that it's me
I did too
I smiled with you
You smiled with me
You left without a word
I was out of words
I stopped & looked back
You didn't look back
You disappeared to thin air
I failed to find you
I couldn't stop tears
You couldn't send a word
You didn't open your heart 
I didn't close my heart
I was very small
You were really big
You were closer 
I never expected that
I stopped to talk
You refused to talk
You were harsh
I was hurt
I let you go
You left with a smile
You misunderstood me
I too misunderstood 
I figured it out
You too figured it out?
You were in front of my eyes
I never expected that
I stopped to talk
You stopped to talk
Your smile healed all of my hurts
I am honoured you smile with me
I let you go
You left with a smile
You can't hurt me anymore
I can't close my heart anyway
I will go my way
You will go your way
You opened your heart a little
I am happy with that little

Methma
Sep 14, 2018

You didn't

The warmth of my long white dress
Blew to the blank sky with a tress
The flow of clouds as white as snow
Changed its form row in a row  

An empty can was rolling down 
On the icy road behind the lawn
The endless wind made me freeze 
You didn't feel the fresh cold breeze...

Live, dead and some half-dead
Greener veins and the rest was red
Yellow, orange, pink and purple
Yellow again and a tree of maple

Along the streets, throughout the hills
Fallen colors gave me thrills
It was a heaven over eaves
You didn't see the colors of leaves...

Securely concealed dormant buds
Swelled in warm as floral buds 
Leaves or flowers, first or next
Spread all over, in their best

Flowery fragrance mixed soft air
Brought a delicacy of good care 
It was elegant with nice posies
You didn't smell the scent of roses...

The water of tears in layers of blue 
From ocean green to Pacific blue
No single cloud, the sky was blue
A warm wind was blowing through

My plain gown was fluttering round
Two little terns were dancing around
It was full of the sound of raves
You did hear the singing of waves...

Methma 
July 1, 2018

I can enjoy this poem in six different ways. Can you enjoy it even more ways?

The little girl

Who thought a tiny little person
Can shake me, like this

I never knew
This little girl
That I have personally met only twice
In my whole life
Will be so close to me

I thought that only me
No, I was wrong
She was longing for me too
I never thought that's possible
But, at the end
She is filling in my heart
Like her big sisters

Her behavior is so much alike
To her first sis 
Whose
Only words 
From her tiny mouth
Were
"Come home"
"Come home"
Every time
When she was on phone.

She was my tail
When I was at home.

This girl is more social 
Coz, two sises 
She is keen, lively and soft
But, no difference  
I was waiting and waiting 
And waiting...
Finally
Her tiny mouth mimic smoothly
"Well, you better come our home"
It's a mixed feeling
I love it but pathetic
I am far away...

She is adorable 
That's why I call her
"Amanda"
hmmm
"Amandina"

You only three
Whose is the third girl
And, I am only your aunt
But, you are my own

Methma
April 15, 2018

Love... Loan...

Love also

A loan...

Beg

Until receive...

Promise

To give back...

Forget

As time passes...

Escape

With no words...

Took from Hansa Sithiwili, and translated into English

Not the worst

I am really busy
     But am I busy as a doctor?
My life is tough
     But is it tougher than a soldier's?
My life is chaos
     But is it chaotic as a drifter's?
I am struggling
     But am I struggling as a refugee?
I am exhausted
     But am I exhausted as a patient?
It's so boring
     But is it boring as a villain's?
I am lonely
     But am I lonelier than an orphan?

Methma
April 10, 2018

Your harsh words

When your words are insincere
It's boring like a night sky with no stars
It's toneless like a flower with no petal
It's lonely like a tree with fallen leaves
It's useless like a house with no roof
It's troublesome like a mobile with cracked screen
It's pathetic like having a Benz with no break
It's scary like a silent sea
It's messy like a meaningless poem
It's clumsy like a bloomless Spring
It's ridiculous like filling a bottomless pot
It's passive like a frozen waterfall
It's empty like a dried out pond
It's pointless like a phone without a sim

Methma
April 3, 2018

Love

Fairy new prone
Origin unknown
Beginning not clear
But, it was there for sure

Grow like a flower
And has it own power
Spread like weeds
With a high speed

No way to escape
Rather admit the shape

No need to be sad
It doesn't look bad
Simple, nice and glad
Things getting add

Moments are cozy
Like a fresh poesy

So much caring for

Like never before

This strong feeling
No way of concealing
Should it disclosing 
Or make it closing


Day and night
It's a long fight
Earlier it was full
Now it's all dull

Time of leaving
Endless grieving
In all morning
I am in mourning 

It was brighter
Now it's darker
Which was rosy
Now all prosy

Throughout the day
Deeming a way
To throw the pain away
And to be okay

Can't go on
Time to move on
In this dawn
It's all gone

Methma
March 31, 2018

Anxious waiting

Like a flower is looking for
The sun for blooming

Like a baby is looking for
Its mom for feeding

Like a farmer is looking for
The rain for seeding

Like a girl is looking for
Her dad for hugging

Like a dog is looking for
Its owner for playing

Like a beggar is looking for
A penny for living

Like a dessert is looking for
The rain for wetting

Like a mom is looking for
Her son for blessing

I am looking for
Something for soothing



Like the flower is looking for
The sun on a cloudy day

Like the baby is looking for
Its mom on a busy day

Like the farmer is looking for
The rain on a sunny day

Like the girl is looking for
Her dad on a mourning day

Like the dog is looking for
His owner on a lonely day

Like the beggar is looking for
A penny on a holiday

Like the dessert is looking for
The rain on a droughty day

Like the mom is looking for
Her son on a working day

I am looking for
Something whole day

Methma
March 15, 2018

A misty road

I am on a hazy path
With a fairly new question in which
No one was interested,
I go here & there
Do this & that
I am puzzled

To be honest,  I have no idea what I am doing
Or even why I am doing this?
Yet, I am looking for the answer
Desperately looking for the answer,
That no one knew before...
I read, write, analyze, make new plans
Even, do things that no one has ever tried 
Still, it's uncertain
Nothing is going smooth
I am lost

It's full with darkness
No one is around
None of the clues is useful
I am insane

I should be on the right track by now
But, how?
Who will help me?
No one knows the answer
They are counting on me
I am scared

Why I pick this question? 
Maybe it's extremely hard and too complex
So, no one was interested 
Now I can't turn, it's too late
I am bored

I am checking how others
Got their answers to their own questions
And trying to relate things
By hoping I can come out of the box, but
I am stuck

I go around and round
I am in the same spot for days
Sometimes, for months...
Will I ever see it? 
I am tense

Once I get the answer,
How can I accept it as the answer?
Will others believe it?
Finding the answer is not the end
Ohh no, I have to justify it as well...
I am pale

After all this hard time
What if someone asks
About practical significance?
I am speechless  


Methma
Feb 11, 2018

One wish

All I want is just one thing 
One minute 
One click
One photo, 
One pencil
One paper
One sketch.
But, how long will it take?
One month?
One semester?
One year?
Or never?

Dec 2017
Methma

That day

Nineteen years
And one day ago
You were laying down on the bed
Lifelessly
I felt your pain
My poor little brother...
I was helpless
It was painful looking at you...
I didn't want to leave you alone
Yet, I waved my hand to say bye
You didn't
I was miserable...
You were laying down with
Your pale little face,
No smile
No talk
No any movements
Ohh, my dear brother...
I grabbed your hand
And waved it
Back at me
To make it less miserable...
Suddenly,
You moved your hand
And saluted me 
The way we usually did...
I was so happy
I thought you were fine now
And left home
With a consolation...
I still remember
I played with my friends 
I even wrote a poem on my desk...
On my way back
I met one of my uncles
He was coming from our home
He turned it back to give me a ride
It was the first time I am
Having a ride...
I was excited at that moment
Yet, felt that something was odd...
Before we reached home
I realized that
Your salute
Was your goodbye tribute to me...

Methma 
Jan 9, 2018

Where are you?

When all of you are around
It's noisy and distracting
I don't mind it
I can concentrate on what am doing
I mean,
'When I want'...
It's warm and cozy
I can come and talk
Anytime I want
At least one of you is there
For me...
Even no one is here to hear me out
I am okay
Because I know
You guys are somewhere
Nearby
So I can talk later...
But, now
Almost all the spots are empty
None of my friends are here
No one will even come later
I went to your desks few times
They look clean and orderly
I have a strong feeling
Of emptiness...
Isn't this saying
I am lonely and
Bored with nothing???
Ohh no
At least one of you could come...
It reminds me
The loneliness I had
On my early days...

Methma
Jan 2, 2018

I and You

I know who you are
You know who I am
You pretend you didn't  see this
I pretend I didn't notice it
I tried, but failed?
You didn't, yet succeed?
You act harshly
I act softly
I think you are lonely
You think I am not?
You are all over
I am nowhere
I am already erased
You will be never erased
You are soft inside
I know it
I know you are arrogant
You know I like it
You have a wide smile
I like that as well
I am bit confused
You better noticed it
You are nowhere to be found
I am semi-insane
I always looked for you
You ever knew it?
You didn't come
I didn't see you from then
I miss you
You didn't miss me?

Methma
Nov 2017